STORIE x(
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
i don't know if the entry was to any of us, but even if it isn't, then let me tell you we have our limits too. figure yourself out then come to us okay. buat ape kejar orang yang dah tak nak kite lagi kan. macam tak gune ah. orang da taknak means tak nak ah. why bother fighting for it. makes me wonder whether all the times you said you love sexy26 was true or not. fine, i had my phase of uncertainty too, but now i acknowledge it was just moodswing on my part. i definitely appreciate and love my girls - you included. i never felt that they were suffocating, i've not walked away. fine i kept quiet, but not walk away.
do you know how disappointed i was when you laughed it when you knew i was going through the same thing as you. as far as i know, it's not really something to be rejoicing about, don't ya think? whats there to rejoice about a "breaking" friendship. we ain't pulling away, you know. you're pulling yourself away.
are we to haggle over something that move away on its own accord? only to make you feel the love and appreciation? grow up ain. it's not the elementary stages of life anymore.
;6:01 AM
Monday, January 28, 2008
almost never. i've not stepped here for so long. i almost forgot about this. but still, this remains as a private one, neh?
ayn, i hope you mature up. fine suffocated, i understand but there's no room for improvement till you step up and accept the fact everyone's changed. till you give us a chance, there's no way we could close up the gap.
maz, i miss you & me & nas & jannah & kom
nisa, i love you. (: you're my source of strength even if you don't know it ah HAHAHA.
i miss komathi.
i miss 2007 07S26.
i wonder why i put in so much effort when it comes to you razali. you make me feel stupid for never giving up. cam tunggol. i put in so much effort and it only boils down to you saying you malu. but i still sayang you, and i don't know why. such a stupid friend.
yana sungguh bodo. tapi yana matured.
;5:38 AM
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
i look back at the last post, a year ago.
how much have i
matured now (:
but still, this blog would remain a
good remedy for me to burst & shout.
i hate ali and how he's affecting me so much.
esp when he doesn't talk to me.
;6:25 AM
Friday, September 08, 2006
i look back on all the unhappy post before.
i guess lashing it out on the blog is really a
remedy(: a good one. i felt bad for slashing all those people before. but every single post will serve as a memory.
now, i don't know if i can trust guodong, and angeline. i guess, i do have trust issues here. sigh.
is this
MINE to begin with?
;8:41 AM
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
i don't know what's happening to you.
i don't wish to call you a bitch. but you gotta know your attitude sucks. you're not some princessy queen you know. so what if you're the main attention of everyone. i guess you don't know this, but i think i gotta say it out. your attitude with boys and girls are totally different. with guys, you're much nicer. its a fact. you can just ask any girls. your attitude is totally different. you expect people to always be by your side, to listen to you. at times, you just gotta sit back and watch how you behave.
when we behave like a bitch, its unacceptable. but when you do, its normal. what the fuck.
like hello, miss pretty face. the world is
NOT yours.
;2:42 AM
Thursday, July 27, 2006
i think i might land myself as a hypocrite. yeah. really.
when the others ignored me, i turned to these several people. and now that i'm on okay terms with the others, im seriously feeling that i might sooner or later neglect the several faithful ones like how i used to do before. however, they were the ones that stood by me when im down
blah. i don wish to neglect them. and i donnow what to do la
=((
;11:38 PM
i swear i don't know who i am now.
who i wanna be.
who i can trust.
everyone seems to be a fake.
including myself.
who can i lie to when i can't even convince myself that i'm okay with being like this.
it seems like my place in your heart is too small for you to even feel affected.
sigh.
;2:14 AM
Sunday, July 16, 2006
what i wouldn't give just to have one more chance. i'm sick of being happy all the time. i wanna be sad. i wanna be sad, and not have someone asking me why. i just wanna be quiet. and reflect about my life.
it seems like, im tired of smiling so widely when i see certain people. it's not that i don't wanna say hi, or i'm pissed with you. smiling, takes alot of effort, to me, especially if it's not needed. so when i see you, and i don't smile, and you walk away feeling pissed cos i didnt smile, i feel plain tired. if we have always been on good terms, you shld know, i love you no matter what. the smile doesn't potray how much i love/cherish you.
sometimes, i just feel like staring into someone's face, and they won't get the wrong idea about it. but it's pretty impossible isn't it. i feel tired & sick.
yes i do. i feel empty also. i don't know why. you know, sometimes i look back, and i wonder why. why don't i have this just one friend who i know i can confide about anything with? its kinda tough when you have this one whole grp, but none which you can really confide in.
i'm just spitting shit. don't mind me. yeah.
haruskah aku katakan sesungguhnya.
kau sudah berubah.
aku tak suka. =/
;11:51 PM
