STORIE x(
Monday, July 10, 2006
sometimes, i feel like giving up. daddy's sick. and he really sick. and i pity him. nenek's sick. she doesn't even feel hot water on her right leg. and she still has to help out with the housework. mama has to work . and by the time she's home, she has to clean, do the laundry and entertain my younger brother.
i'm tired. just from school. from all the hw. and all the deadlines which has passed. i'm worried about my o's. and, if i can get tired from jus this, i wonder how mama feels. yet, she doesn't complain. and all she's asking is, a little help from me. yet, i can get so reluctant at it. i've nver tried to understand her, but i still strongly feel she doesn't try to understand me too.
despite that, i know she's being the best mom she can ever be. somehow, it doesn't seem to impress me. i know i'm sucha ungrateful daughter. still, that doesn't stop me from hurting her heart. and somehow, it hurts me knowing i've hurt her. i really don't know. i feel like giving up. and i'm tired of keeping up this facade.
at times, i just wonder, why am i born in this family. see how ungrateful i can get. but seeing how, my friends all around me can just buy anything they want, or get anything they desire, i wonder why mama can't fulfil my little little desires. i know she's been doing
all she can. infact, everytime we go out, she doesn't even get a little something for herself.
i'm such a ungrateful daughter and i know, something deep inside me does not want to repent. but mama, i still love you. )':
;2:43 AM
