STORIE x(
Sunday, July 16, 2006
what i wouldn't give just to have one more chance. i'm sick of being happy all the time. i wanna be sad. i wanna be sad, and not have someone asking me why. i just wanna be quiet. and reflect about my life.
it seems like, im tired of smiling so widely when i see certain people. it's not that i don't wanna say hi, or i'm pissed with you. smiling, takes alot of effort, to me, especially if it's not needed. so when i see you, and i don't smile, and you walk away feeling pissed cos i didnt smile, i feel plain tired. if we have always been on good terms, you shld know, i love you no matter what. the smile doesn't potray how much i love/cherish you.
sometimes, i just feel like staring into someone's face, and they won't get the wrong idea about it. but it's pretty impossible isn't it. i feel tired & sick.
yes i do. i feel empty also. i don't know why. you know, sometimes i look back, and i wonder why. why don't i have this just one friend who i know i can confide about anything with? its kinda tough when you have this one whole grp, but none which you can really confide in.
i'm just spitting shit. don't mind me. yeah.
haruskah aku katakan sesungguhnya.
kau sudah berubah.
aku tak suka. =/
;11:51 PM
